crush

he's beyond gorgeous. every beat my heart's beating i wish he's mine. i'm not desperate,i'm not trying to seek his attention. 6 months passed by and i finally knew i loved him all this time. hating the fact that i have to love someone that no longer i could see everyday in school. he didnt know this.he didnt know that all this time ive been secretly admire him. he didnt know that everytime we talk i feel the butterflies.he didnt know that every riddles he speak ill be the one whos laughing out loud. he didnt know i watch very move he made. i could never hear his voice again. i can never watch his lips whispering my name.  he's gone now. gone because he did bad thing. i didnt care. i still love him. i have so many crush but not like this one. not like im so sad that hes no more here. i wish he knew. i wish im looking at his eyes right now. i wasnt gonna hold his hands. i just want to hear his voice trying to calm me down. i want him to be the one whos gonna hold me from falling and  shout at behind 'BEWARE,' i still remember the very first time i knew him. hes trying to be sheman and tht was the first day im adoring him. this feeling getting strong and stronger day by day. calm. breathe in, breathe out. xoxo balqis

SALAM MAULIDUR RASUL EVERYONE! you know that we all love our prophet muhamad s.a.w