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You got me feel so attached since the first day you said 'hi'. Thats a very typical thing for a sweettalker like you. Did u still remember how everything flows? The goodluck, goodmorning, goodnight texts u sent to me? You should know how tht knocks into my heart. You got me feel really attached again when you said youve been waiting all day long for me to text u. You know how girls love those kind of words dont you? As for the fact that u got a lot of girls than boys on ur family tree. I might sound creepy now cuz i stalked u everyday back then. But now not anymore. The things keep going and my dead butterflies on my tummy went flutters back around since ive known you. I even got my mood swings when you didnt text. Theres the day when you didnt text me in like 1 week and suddenly you said you starting to like me and my voice. God knows how happy i was tht time.. if only i knew you were lying.

Not only that, i even got the sense of doubt when u prioritize ur sleep and game and whatever over me. Thats obvious. I doubt u bcuz of that. Ughh now i feel like i want to kill you. The next day, you do it again. U didnt text and stuffs. That was the day i became the most miserable lady in the world. Well thinking about it back again makes me feel like im a clingy person. When actually im not clingy at all. Next thing i know you only show up just by liking my posts.. so i started to lost my senses and my thoughts went wild to my past life. My past life as in my past relationships. I was feeling very gloomy and down that day. Bcuz u remind me of my love life back again!! Ugh

He probably read that and went give up. I took a photo with my cousin that is a boy and there....... it all ended. Just like that. Boom. I tried to talk but didnt get any reply from you. That was the last attempt from me for wanted to talk to you. I feel like im a piece of junk

I didnt move on though. Wherever i go, i always think that you are near. And you would see me and fall in love to me back again lol. Whenever i saw a blue motorcycle going on the road i will look at the driver's face and be broken back again. Shizz. That was hurtful


Whats even more hurtful when the very next day you make a random conversation with me and i saw ur pic with her. Whats even worst that you made it as ur main profile picture. My heart was sinking.all thats going in my head was 'how could you treat me like that?'

Hm im not that type of girl who easily cry you know. I was just frustrated. Very frust. And i wonder thought how could u do this to me? What kind of person are you? And stuffs. Physically stopped caring but mentally i give fuck to anything, shizzz well think about it again. She was ur ex gf and u getback with her. Im nothing compared to her. Shes prettier, smarter. There.... my insecurities kill me again. Haihh so thats the end if our story.. we were something but now we are like a total strangers, i hope you know that i loved you bro. I never told u this and u surely have no idea how attached i am to you. But what cn i do then? Life should move on. This may take a long period. But i will surely able to cope this. Hmmm

crush

he's beyond gorgeous. every beat my heart's beating i wish he's mine. i'm not desperate,i'm not trying to seek his attention. 6 months passed by and i finally knew i loved him all this time. hating the fact that i have to love someone that no longer i could see everyday in school. he didnt know this.he didnt know that all this time ive been secretly admire him. he didnt know that everytime we talk i feel the butterflies.he didnt know that every riddles he speak ill be the one whos laughing out loud. he didnt know i watch very move he made. i could never hear his voice again. i can never watch his lips whispering my name.  he's gone now. gone because he did bad thing. i didnt care. i still love him. i have so many crush but not like this one. not like im so sad that hes no more here. i wish he knew. i wish im looking at his eyes right now. i wasnt gonna hold his hands. i just want to hear his voice trying to calm me down. i want him to be the one whos gonna hold me from falling and  shout at behind 'BEWARE,' i still remember the very first time i knew him. hes trying to be sheman and tht was the first day im adoring him. this feeling getting strong and stronger day by day. calm. breathe in, breathe out. xoxo balqis

SALAM MAULIDUR RASUL EVERYONE! you know that we all love our prophet muhamad s.a.w

shit! bapak terkejut je aku tengok link tu. sial la! vaviii. hahaha k sabar mengucap. er okay skrg i kt kampung lew. laju sial line kalah rumah aku. hari ni saya nak cakap pasal tahun depan
ops ops skrg da december lah?! mati lew. result PMR kluar tah aku tak tau bile. yela enn, kejap ade ckp 22 dis, 23 dis, 26 la 27 la. aku pon heran tapi aku rasa antara yg aku sebut ni la kott harhar, ihihihihikss dude tahun depan da 2012. azam aku pon harap2 la semua tercapai kan. kite usaha dulu kan. yang lain kite da cube. kite cuba dulu lah!. tahun depan i pindah kott. dad already send his request nk pindah ke KK. 3 hari lepas i kat KK, dad already talk to this person~ who is a contractor. we planned nk duduk rumah tu tahun depan. InsyAllah lah kalau takda halangan en. nak tahu napa nak renovate rumah? SBB PENYEWA DULU TU TAK RETI JAGA RUMAH! DIE ORG ALIM PULAK TU. DA ALIM TU JAGA LA RUMAH ORANG SIKIT EN?
ok and dad also have talked to some agents yg akan tolong hntr barang2 kt miri tu g KK nti.. LOL xda agents pon xpa bah. sbb we still got family yg ada lori. bole hntr apa kan?
oh and about the permohonan msuk sekolah sains somewhere in sabah. i hope i akan diterima masuk. but i dont give my hopes to high kan. i dont where is it da lupa lew. biasala da tua kan? but i really wanna go to boarding school. masa depan pun terjamin, cita-cita dpt ditunaikan? kan kan? oh did i ever mention tht i wanna be lawyer? harhar cause i fucking wanna be a lawyer. heee :) kite tengok ye sayang
LOL i just realized tht my stats on fb being so weird and stupid. harhar.
i went shopping to 1 borneo 2 hari lepas. i bought a vincci purse, a long-sleeve padini shirt and a grey jeans frm applemints. thank Allah my dad willing to give me money harhar. well tht's y i love you la dad!. HIHI
oh and azmil. dia nak sgt tgk muka aku harhar. hritu dia mo join shopping sama2 dgn aku tp SAPA SURUH LATE REPLY? NAA KAN. and yesterdy dia suruh aku temankan mkn di KFC IP tu. harhar.
k la bye sweetheart muah

Legooo

we broke up :/ i was the one who ask for it. he at first threatened me by saying he's gonna commit suicide. but he didnt haha. why we broke up? because of some secret tht is too private to talk. i was so down yesterday i didnt even eat. i only stayed at my room with those fucking stupid clothes everywhere. i cried yesterday night. i just miss moment we used to have. his voice, my first date. and i still remember he wakes me up on fasting month. remembering everything just make me wanna cry.
My phone, there's no point checking out the phone now. because its no more vibrating. no one's gonna txt me after this again. and there goes the silly forever alone life. wtf kan wtf?
But then i realized, why like this? i should go move on. we just doesnt meant together. thx kj, afiq for the advice.
oh did i mentioned me and kj fight? i forget about it anyway. love you baby girl im sooo sorry k muah

good i just cant stop myself listening to ed sheeran. anis n kj told me tht he's not hot at all. but forgodsake i wanna marry him haha. dear azmil i love you muah :*. ive ordy made changes in this blog. let just see whether i will continue-ing posting here kthxbye

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